The Jotter Book Club

2012-02-14T01:11:00.001+08:00

O HAPPY DAYZ

Repetitive

2012-02-14T01:01:00.000+08:00

i did it again, k bye!

2012-02-13T12:37:00.003+08:00

Daily Scoop

2012-02-13T11:50:00.001+08:00

i am afraid of these but it was already dead when i snapped a photo of this helicopter.

i took this shot off my laptop screen, a photo of my classmates for all modules during our very last lesson.

awww i'm gonna miss them so bad.

presenting the three bearbandits hahahaha.

the shorties at work, hahaha (we still have more); suvin and amy.

this is my creeper boyfriend who likes to give me that pedo look bwehehehehe.

one of my favourite places to chill around dusk.

free food free drink free electricity! hahahahaha

i think i want a boat shoe >: these are from korea and they are deffoz awesoz

i like to take everything out of my green cupboard and try out clothes so i wont have to think of what to wear the next time i go out. stiew, it takes me more than an hour to pick out my outfit ALL THE TIME -_-

hello long time never wear eyeliner or put effort into my make up, so decided to do it at night (12+am, when i was about to go to bed). i make so much sense as you guys know.

last lunch outside class, we are baus; okay not.

more bad quality photos hahahahhaa, swear i want an olympus pen :<

blah blah self-shots, more fat pear face. i was attempting to pop a dimple on the right without but it still looks awkward krik!

topshop (the only item i bought without feeling like shit) flats// work like a rebel, DONT WEAR COTTON ON CLOTHES!!! im so naughty guys, beat me.

im showing you how i can lie down on my kitchen floor and comfortably make uncomfortable faces, bleah!

red tea + cheese fries .. ):

mr afiq im going to miss your nonsense and act serious attitude *rolls eyes*

but dont look at us creepily hahahaha.

who is this mchottie? im sorry, he's taken.. by me.

juan sng our supervisor hahahaha and thats me looking like cat shit because i couldnt find my formal wear.

2nd FYP presentation, not the real thing anyways.

da whole team. i've always thought juan looks so much like the ladybug in the pixar animated film A Bug's Life. No? YES.

And amidst the presentation, a fire actually broke out behind our school. What kind of shit is this?

One of them are going to be with us (hopefully) soon.

If u can zoom in and look closely, there is actually an elderly person sitting on the water breaker while flying a kite. This scene was so eye catching and interesting in a way that his kite was of two legs and near its foot was a soccer ball. ai love!

one of the best things to do with my love, chilling around his area.

we cycled near the sea, enjoyed the breeze, sat by the water breaker watching sunset and people picking crustaceans, listening to our favourite music, singing out loud, snapping funny photos, lying down side by side,... hais! not only that, we got to finish off the day with a dollop of blizzard brownie tempation (!) and OCK. haha sitting at some random place, on the floor. mainly the reason i love doing all these is because it reminds me so much of our first few months together <3

^^ HAVE A GOOD DAY MY LOVELIES ^^

2012-02-10T02:48:00.001+08:00

2012-02-10T02:38:00.002+08:00

Push You

2012-02-09T03:09:00.002+08:00

i miss the way you pamper me
i miss the way you make me feel special
i miss the times you weren't so hated by me
i miss the times i'd feel protected by you
i miss the times i won't go a day thinking how much i'd wanna grow old with you
i miss the times when things weren't so frustrating
i miss the times when the smallest things don't matter

i just miss those times
i want that you back
honestly i don't know what i'm staying for
maybe to wait for something else to happen
so that the same cycle can repeat all over again

saying something that hurts
only to take it back (or not)
when you see me hurt
then start all over again

that's you.

Hun

2012-02-08T23:56:00.003+08:00

YES YOU ARE MY SWEET LOVE

Spice of Life

2012-02-08T10:45:00.000+08:00

This is my life

school, work and home

Had an impromptu date with huda khairi and fashhan :) muihihihi.

I'm just feeling really upset and sad that today's my last day of school

no words..

Changing Lanes

2012-02-08T10:43:00.000+08:00

Awkward position is Awkward

2012-02-07T12:06:00.001+08:00

2012-02-06T11:34:00.002+08:00

Ricochet

2012-02-05T20:06:00.001+08:00

Im sorry self, you're not any good.
I wish to get rid of feelings like these but it seems like i cant, u n l e s s

Fret not, life is temporary
Everything we see are just temptations, traps and illusions
We'll live forever tomorrow;
Live for tomorrow
Die for tomorrow
InsyaAllah

God give me the strength i need
Amin.

Would you

2012-02-03T11:16:00.000+08:00

hello bye bye hello hello bye bye

Dude!

2012-02-02T11:27:00.002+08:00

Regurgitate

2012-02-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

If only the weather here permits (!!!)

2012-02-01T21:22:00.004+08:00

S T U D Y I N G

I N F I N I T Y

Pooh

2012-01-31T00:25:00.004+08:00

azofnao

Ravishing

2012-01-30T23:15:00.001+08:00

my o my

Relinquish

2012-01-29T22:36:00.001+08:00

At this moment, i am ready to give up everything. I totally feel unworthy. Please eat me up o earth. I fail to deliver at every aspect of my life, totally need to slap the shit out of my head. Sigh, where have i gone wrong? I know but, is that really all? Have i sinned from being in denial?

I am fuckin disgusted with my workplace. I am so eager to find a proper job soon. Gosh. And school? Lets not start on that, its absolutely no-drive moment being optimized. I am doing fine with my subjects but, (another sigh). & To add to these major areas of focus in my life are much greater downfalls. I have had enough.

IT'S MORPHIN TIME

Eucalyptus

2012-01-27T23:31:00.001+08:00

MoTHeRbOT bETuL
MoTHeRbOT bETuL
MoTHeRbOT bETuL
MoTHeRbOT bETuL
MoTHeRbOT bETuL
MoTHeRbOT bETuL
MoTHeRbOT bETuL

Kapish?

2012-01-27T10:49:00.000+08:00

Yin and Yang

2012-01-24T17:17:00.002+08:00

Favourite ever.

So Lovely

2012-01-24T16:39:00.002+08:00

If I were a painter, I would paint my reverie
If that's the only way for you to be with me
We'd be there together, just like we used to be
Underneath the swirling skies, for all to see..
And I'm dreaming of a place,
Where I could your face;
And I think my brush would take me there..
But only, if I were a painter
and could paint a memory
I'd climb inside the swirling skies
to be with you.

Norah Jones - The Painter

Hey

2012-01-24T15:33:00.003+08:00

I like that you're able to pick out my music taste for me
even when I can't.

xx

maybe one day I'll find that spark between us again
I know I will

Boda Day

2012-01-22T19:47:00.001+08:00

Happenstance

2012-01-21T20:25:00.002+08:00

Take Over

2012-01-21T16:51:00.002+08:00

and it's okay to have short hair

Cogitation

2012-01-21T15:31:00.000+08:00

gomu gomu no!

*****************

since this is my blog, i strongly believe that i have the utmost right to make declaration of my whims, mental objects, hopes, rationalizations, cognition, my state of mind, pathos, intuition, fervor and anything else related to this physical entity bounded by everything and anything that of life.

with all due respect, i shall humbly (in awareness of the consequences that could ricochet) mention how i am swamped by such heavy duties that require fulfilment by this Friday. i terribly regret telling you how up to my ears and deeply submerged i am with my school work, therefore the potential failure to be present.

neko wa kuroii desu

2012-01-21T15:20:00.000+08:00

猫は黒です

The cat is black.

Well, I Say

2012-01-21T03:37:00.000+08:00

what is up bitches

boys wont dictate my happiness

2012-01-21T01:44:00.000+08:00

being hurt too many times
does not make me stronger
it destroys who i am, and who i wanted to be
it makes me who i am today

i still wonder what i want out of this time apart from you
i dont wish to hurt you in the end
let me sort my feelings out first

2012-01-20T14:45:00.001+08:00

My Lovely

2012-01-20T14:31:00.002+08:00

meet my sayangs (: mira's not here.

xoxoxo

Hi Liesa!

2012-01-17T03:50:00.000+08:00

from 2 years ago

bye liesa now!

Burnnnn

2012-01-16T10:57:00.000+08:00

Proud

2012-01-16T10:33:00.001+08:00

aww that's sweet ducky (:

underneath that brat attitude, i knew he has such a loving demeanour

Made me think

2012-01-16T00:21:00.003+08:00

"It was also fun thinking about the small, tender gestures that a couple offers to each other– which are really the fuel that keeps a relationship special. I love that Garance makes my oatmeal for me in the morning while I run out to get our coffee. They’re both just simple small acts but they make life happy."

- The Sartorialist

Hmm.

Goldfish Salvation by Riusuke Fukahori

2012-01-13T11:27:00.000+08:00

A Day Ago

2012-01-13T10:38:00.001+08:00

hmm

School

2012-01-11T23:57:00.002+08:00

i am aware of how blatant the fact that i have no life through all these images i have posted

confidence suicide happening now

bye

Three by Four

2012-01-11T23:55:00.000+08:00

More Benevolent

2012-01-11T23:47:00.002+08:00

I know this layout is getting pretty annoying; and that GIF of that old dude and his middle finger - i can't even. Lolxsk. Wuh evs. Things are so shaky for me now but i've decided i'll keep my composure. God knows just how tangled up i am inside. It's okay, i'll pull through. I would never be able to be as transparent here or even to anyone. I can't decide if i really feel so stressed up or i'm just over reacting. My pay is almost a week late. All those shit days i've worked over the holidays; very pissed. Problem is there is almost nothing we could do. I really hate the company i work for. Even the internals are fucked up. That isn't the only thing that's bothering me, i've got so much things in my head i wish i could clear, wishing i could go up to some people i need to and spit some words on their faces so they'd wake up and realise how affected i am, wishing i could do things that are almost impossible right now. Just screw it all seriously, i wanna run away from all these so bad.

2012-01-09T09:50:00.001+08:00

Wish I Could

2012-01-06T14:28:00.002+08:00

In Sync

2012-01-05T13:29:00.001+08:00

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Straw Pose #1

Straw Pose #2

"Hey" I love you.

Profile: someone's packing the pounds aye?

That's really how so damn spacious my workplace's back room is, mintak kena roboh.

2012-01-05T12:26:00.000+08:00

Hello,

Chase.
That's all everyone's doing. Chasing dreams, chasing after a girl, chase business deals, chasing knowledge.
Me? Right now, all i am thinking about is how to get out of this rut. I don't wanna chase nothing, I wanna run. Run away from my country, from this life. I understand that I get bored easily, or at least that's what I've been told. The only exception are the people whom I invest mostly on, my family, a few close friends and probably my boyfriend. I don't know what I want out of this post, but all I wish to say is that there is a part of me that appreciates all the small quiet things that are beautiful. I am just another quiet person who feels out of place many times, who struggles to start a conversation even with someone whom she knows for sometime. I do appreciate classical music, songs from Etta James and old films and I like white rustic spaces, mountain ranges and nature. Probably with me saying all this, one can only conclude and it comes down to one thing, I am bored of this life. I want something new. I cannot wait to earn some real bucks and do something for myself and especially for the 2 most important figures in my life. I am sick of my diploma, I am sick of the things I have to do to secure a living in the future. I am sick of the screwed up system we have here. I am sick of everyone's mental opinions about every single thing every one puts out there in the cyber world. I am sick of the fact that there are people who just wants to be the best every single moment of every single period of time; the fact that fitting in is better than standing out. I am sick of watching the people around me who looks like they might just maul me when I smile at them. I wish to live somewhere else. Who I am, it feels like I don't even belong here. Right now, it seems like I am untangling my thoughts, but at the same time, I could just give up and chuck those thoughts at a cold and dark corner. I need a clear mind to know what I want, who I am and where I stand.

Will someone just help me clear this blur?

I'm in Love

2012-01-05T11:49:00.001+08:00

Oh.. Gabe.

You're perfect.

Just like

2012-01-05T11:27:00.002+08:00

i really like breathtaking photographs
i want the olympus pen with me everywhere i go
we can be best friends?

A First

2012-01-04T02:36:00.002+08:00

Ola

2012-01-02T03:47:00.000+08:00

look at you now
SO COOOL!

Recoil

2012-01-02T02:42:00.001+08:00

So 2012's here?
k

Here's wishing all my readers an even better year
To new beginnings, to better days
Let's take this year a day at a time
I'm grateful to be still here

Happy New Year everyone

Last Moments

2012-01-02T02:38:00.003+08:00

Clean Cut

2011-12-29T13:00:00.003+08:00

Perfect in all places

Hair and Piercings

A Less than Three

2011-12-28T14:08:00.000+08:00

Now That's Cute

2011-12-28T09:27:00.001+08:00

Just Another

2011-12-28T00:06:00.002+08:00

A Little Some Something

2011-12-27T23:58:00.000+08:00

Apologies ladies for the sudden disappearance here. I kinda stop the momentum drastically didn't I? I was away for the weekend and twas quite a week on top of working I guess. Things have not been good for me if you guys should know. I am facing things I wish I never have to, things I foretold I don't need to face but ended up with. These things, will stay in my heart and go nowhere. No words will roll out of my tongue, no form of morpheme shall be spelt out with this very hands. I'm pretty disturbed I must say. Should any of those happen, I guess it would be a whole other issue I'd rather not deal with.

Moving on.

2011-12-20T19:16:00.000+08:00

"Sometimes, the smallest things take up the most room in your heart."

- Pooh

Hope: Everything's Not Lost

2011-12-20T19:06:00.000+08:00

hahahaha same onot the beret pic?! hahhahahahhaha. this morning i looked out the window and saw one massive crane blocking out the carpark entrance towering over the blocks. man was it scary. i wouldn't wanna put my morbid thoughts here, please. someone is having so much fun there. he's an animal rights activist now, on his journey to save mother nature, one animal at a time. and look where he's moved to, changed into budak pantai already. i miss you sugar xx. thank you for getting us the dashboard tickets, i'm really looking forward to it. and before i forget, it's zurah's birthday today ♥ happy 20th sweetheart. i love einstein so i gave him a beret to rock.

i miss all of it

Dum Dee Dum!

2011-12-20T16:42:00.000+08:00

You can't deny how wonderful this cover is. I'd love to have him serenade me one day.

Harry Connick Jr. and Michael Buble are two singers on my list, I need to find more.

Weather's been real gloomy lately, and it ain't parallel with my feelings! I'm doing okay guys. It's the holidays and although with work being not too bad at all, I'm struggling to get hold of the time I can do my school work. I'm feeling sluggish, honest.

COUNTDOWN: 2 More days to Game of Shadows

Have a great day ahead my lovelies

2011-12-19T15:51:00.000+08:00

OH HAY

Album Leaf

2011-12-19T02:39:00.000+08:00

see, chaplin is cool

watch okay

PS: my stupid sister says that i'm wearing only bra on my previous post. it's a top you cockroach. *clearing the air.

PPS: my older sister resembles azli from senario at times.

That was fast?

2011-12-18T19:58:00.001+08:00

EH SORRY LAH MAJORITY OF THESE PHOTOS ARE LIKE SELF SHOTS

BUT REALLY WAHHHH MY HAIR GREW LEH?!

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i really have issues with my hair

like argh! sometimes i hate it sometimes i wanna just cut another pixie style

i think its times like these when i can cut any style i want.

yeah, before i step into the working life.

i have never regretted cutting my hair short, and sometimes i even wish for even shorter

mine was a .. tao inspired bowl something something haircut.

too bad my hair does not have ANY wave at all; stick straight ||'_'||

booooooooo, k lah dah grow kan?

bye tootsies

Tijuana

2011-12-18T02:23:00.001+08:00

just because i wanna get rid of the last 2 posts
CHAN GOT BACK TO ME
yay

night jiggleshits

Mugshot

2011-12-18T02:20:00.002+08:00

HELLO
im so glued to OC (which my BOYFRIEND IS OBSESSED ABOUT).
and ive got work tomorrow morning
bless me fatty patties

muacks

Supperella

2011-12-17T12:57:00.004+08:00

hello fatsos of the world

don't worry, look at my face. i'm also a fatso. even more certified fatso after shhan called me one.

it's such a nice day. i feel like i'm staying near a garden or something. my desk faces the window and the scenery outside looks greener than usual. angle make it seems like i can't see any building ahead. pretty freakin great here. and the occasional big drops of rain that fall from the leaves plus the hazy view from this drizzle, my white curtains.

what shall we do today?

Read a Mind

2011-12-17T12:22:00.003+08:00

i love her shoes

i love her beret

i love her socks

i love her smile

i fookin love her tats

i love whatever's going on behind her

and i love her hair

Keep Being Inspired ;)

Candycolor

2011-12-16T16:05:00.003+08:00

Heya guise

Shhan just left for KL and won't be back till the release of Sherlock Holmes: Game of Shadows, which is this comin Thursday. Thank god, or I will go to the movies ALL BY MYSELF. Defo. I'm not complaining that he's gone for like a week or something, but I do feel his absence :< School break has just started and my life would like suck. I have given maximum shifts for almost everyday, and have to squeeze in FYP days. There isn't any fun time for me this holidays cause i'm fucken broke. Bahh, so this post is totally meaningless. Nothing much to say. I'm really worn out from everything that I've been doing these few weeks. I never took a break and never sat at home when it's still bright.

point is;
i can't wait to grow my hair out till it pass my chin
meh

piepie

Oh Yes

2011-12-15T12:05:00.002+08:00

i guess it was really just a misunderstanding like id said

hmm

2011-12-15T11:50:00.001+08:00

Bathing Bear

2011-12-15T06:38:00.001+08:00

BECAUSE MY BOYFRIEND IS SO AWESOME LIKE ZHAT!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!

xx

Mixed

2011-12-14T23:39:00.001+08:00

I never knew i could do such a thing
I didnt realise i was capable of it
I am so embarrassed
I love you so much
:'(

I guess all the emotional burden has taken a toll on me. Apart from that, i am also physically tired. I am very blessed to have a body that can support everything that i go through each day. I have been the first to step out of the house and last to knock the door everyday. I am so grateful for the friends i have in school, mainly efa afiq and mira. I owe all of you a hug :) and of course i wont forget my dear girl @flaxenmauve. im dead if u leave work for attachment :( but yeap, glad its all over? Bawlin my eyes out hahaha zurah.......... Fan........

I still cannot forget what i did
<\3

I'm just Rubble, I'm aftermath :(

2011-12-14T01:32:00.001+08:00

I. DO. THIS. EVERY. SINGLE. NIGHT.

#legit

#truestorry

omg so pissed and confused and asdfghgasha

Slow Jams

2011-12-12T01:49:00.001+08:00

facebook down
twitter down
i feel so restricted everywhere

i've got to snap out of this
all im looking forward for tomorrow is to smell my perfume all day long
i have a confession to make, i really like
songs like this
rn, i just need to be the better person
i got to emit sun rays starting from tomorrow onwards
i got to laugh more
and be such a nice person
no more cussin
i will be the more matured one
;)

i'm so lovely
HAHA
goodnight
xxxxxxxx

Late

2011-12-12T00:21:00.001+08:00

#mademesmile (:
xx goodnight lovers

You left me high and dry

2011-12-11T21:53:00.001+08:00

Nice saturday spent with my boyfriend. Had a store meeting in the morning which only few turned up :( Nevertheless, I had my breakfast with @flaxenmauve and accompanied her all the way till 4 once she finished her break. Afterwhich I met my bebe love at work, and like always I get a toffee nut frappuccino made with ♥ from him. He gave me his super delicious triple cheese pizza (????) which was his lunch! Don't fret, he was already full from all the marked out foods he ate earlier. And! He slipped a monster cookie into my bag after that mehehe. We walked around Esplanade to look out for any good music acts and this duo totally caught our eye (?) Well more like caught our ears! I am so glad I recorded it. So brilliant, please watch the video. They are Zsa & Claire. In the zone mangz. I would totally have them when I wed. I love you girls, so cool ♥

I guess the fight went down this way, I lost. I lost you. I didn't know you would do this, all I wanted was for you to stay. But you told me that was goodbye. What was I to do? As much as I wanted you back, there was no point forcing. If this is what you want, then go ahead. My door is still open. I miss you. This chapter is closed. The chapter whereby so many misunderstandings happened and feelings were so unclear; whereby you took my words so seriously and in such a confusing way. I didn't mean it, I swear. When I said I'm out, I meant out of this situation. Not out of your life. So you thought it was best for me not to have you, and you literally left. I hope this is my last post involving you, I'll try. This is the only place where I know of a chance that you would read, I think. :'( I'm learning from this and I got to move on. Well, let go and let God, right? You never failed to make me laugh and have a good time each time we meet. I've always loved your company. But having a best friend who would stay with me forever was never my fate, I swear. I lost hope. I've tried my best though.

Cheer up Liesa.
Life goes on, forwards.
He had alighted.

Cheerios friends,
♥

Chicken Shit

2011-12-11T21:36:00.001+08:00

Crestfallen

2011-12-11T02:30:00.001+08:00

love you forever

---------------------------

he left me :(

i had hopes and good intentions

but he wanted to leave

xx
liesa

Eat Shit! B-a Anas! B-A-N-A-N-A-S!

2011-12-11T00:03:00.001+08:00

Well well well
Been a couple days and i still don't get any reply from you
Guess this is it right? Okay........
There isn't any resolution even
PSHHH

i dont know what to do about this
im leaving it to rest bla bla blaaaaaajabdfijabdgbaodjsfsdg
it's like clapping using one hand
wtf man i feel so stupid..
people find you, you ignore
duno ah if u read this or not
i text u u read also like shit only no reply
facebook delete twitter unfollow pe sia?!
takde meaning bro takde meaninggggggggggg
i dont understand why like this

k lah! dont want talk to me at least say lah wahlao!
wanna avoid all... fucked up sia
think im not hurt ah?
ego takde lagi besar..
tsk whatever ah bye

Deprived

2011-12-10T02:11:00.001+08:00

Hi guys
you know what i'm thinking about?

We're left with 5 more problems for school. 5 more school weeks. 20 more days of seeing my friends.
I'm totally going to miss each and every one of them.
All I wish to do is hug all of you before we stop seeing each other in class.
I AM SO EMOTIONAL.

SOBSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
wtffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff

BTW
I really cannot get over the fact that TOE's tickets are sold out
:((((( times a gajillionx

I have a store meeting at 8 am
Can't wait to have my breakfast with zurah :>

k bye bye

my sister wants to rembat my hair

Salutations Friends

2011-12-09T02:11:00.001+08:00

hello

Always, 4VO

2011-12-06T22:28:00.001+08:00

Boda's Photobomb

2011-12-06T18:58:00.001+08:00

Gotye

2011-12-06T13:55:00.001+08:00

2011-12-06T12:11:00.001+08:00

CHINS UP!

trousers down

I Thought About My Dad This Morning

2011-12-05T17:50:00.001+08:00

Hey guys currently waiting for work to start in a bit. Thinking wht i should put in my rj; how singapore's b.o.p balance of payments affect me. I dont know. Mehh. Featuring my to go drink. I think its perfect. I think the world's not perfect. Oh well.

Haha i guess now im just trying to lay my mind off you. Feels great to know that im out of options to reach you. Especially knowing id get no response from you. Sure.. I love cold shoulders. Its totally exciting! Now, i know ive done my part. And for the record, ive apologized and guess what, i forgive you!! Bonus right?! Haha fool. Talking bt myself though, takmo terasa ;) Was such a fool to even try. Whatever. Learnt my lesson, but really; i also learnt a side of u i never knew of ezan. Wow.. Not bad la really, standing ovation for such a brilliant reaction. Honestly though, i dont think its nice for anyone to leave anyone else hanging. Give an answer or at least say something to show that you are not keen to talk ok? I would TOTALLY get it hehe. I mean like, really, who are we right? So sorry to disturb awesome people spending time with only awesome friends. No biggie bro, backing out here! Stay quiet all you want, remove me from your life all you want. Explains it all, ppl care for u but u dont even give a shit. Congratulations, you just won the douchebag morfakar award. Im really angry and upset that youd do this to me. Maybe ive hurt ur feelings and maybe id assumed wrongly. Ezan, the world doesnt evolve around you ok? I have feelings too, and if i think that you havent been making any effort in talking to me, do something about it. But before that, think about ur home first. Idc if u dont wanna talk to me, but i think uve got ur priorities wrong bro... You know urself. Im not gonna be here to talk some sense into you anymore, but here i am, hoping youd read this, waiting for u to do something about ur life and whatever concerns you, your dearest ones. I may never know whens my time to go, and neither do those at home, but think about that. Noones given any chance to stay a while more when their fates written in stone. So cherish your time with them. Set things right for urself. Im saying all this only because it feels like everyone except you knows this. I just feel the urge to tell you all this before its too late.

Bye ezan
Bye friends ;)

XX

Thunder

2011-12-04T16:22:00.001+08:00

I guess i cant part with my hats. Ive always loved hats caps berets. But with this short hair i rly cant seem to pull them off :( so i got sad. Then i saw this! Hahaha i love her. And i would also love you if any of my readers are able to find and get me a beanieeee hahahaha :x thick skin

Pie!

☀/☁

2011-12-04T11:40:00.001+08:00

2011-12-04T02:12:00.001+08:00

R E T A I N I N G

S A N I T Y

Forgetting

2011-12-04T02:04:00.001+08:00

I apologize for throwing bullshit at you.

I apologize for making you listen to my useless rants.

I apologize for not making any sense.

I apologize for intruding your life.

Really, i regretted doing that cos if i hadn't done so, things wouldn't have been this way

Miss you though

bye guys

Haze cause Chaos

2011-12-02T23:30:00.001+08:00

Where did i go wrong?
:,(

I.. Don't know what ive done to deserve this. I was hoping this would end soon. Turns out, this was how it ends.

Dearest friend
I hope things turn out the best for u no matter how bad or good things are for you now. Noone can ever be the same as you. You'll always have a place in my heart after all these arguments.

I'm deeply upset

That

2011-11-30T01:55:00.001+08:00

Broke my heart

For a Friend

2011-11-29T01:37:00.001+08:00

I, haven't been well.
But I also have been better.
Then, I fell sick.
But, slowly improved.

Where were you when all these happened? Nowhere.
You missed out on my life. Well maybe, you don't miss out anything. Cos I don't mean nothing to you. The most I expected was a simple "Hi" or .. I don't know. Where did I go wrong? Will you just stop this madness? I get it, I get that you have your own life, you have your own friends and who knows, you've got yourself a nice girl by now. But hey, who am I not to share all these with? So much for you "Siapa lah aku sekarang?". Turns out, I was the one who deserved to say that. Who am I now? I don't wish for history to repeat. Just make a decision at least, for me to drop all these BS. I just need an explanation, why you'd neglect me. Don't front with me. I'm not going to curseblog like I did last time. Don't tell me you have been looking for me, or lay out the shit excuses you have up your sleeve for me. I don't need it, I don't need your fake front. I just want the old you back. I miss you, and I want you to be there for me.

I hope you feel neglected one day. Don't start looking for me.. Cos i'll try my best not to be there for you ever. Call yourself my bestfriend but not living up to it. Thanks for proving that friends really are people who come and go. You've made your point really clear. Kudos to you for not even using words to explain. This is the umpteenth time this has happened. I'm really sad to see us this way, I even feel sorry for myself. I can't even talk to you straight. I'm sorry if I had talked to you coldly. It was totally uncalled for, but I figured that I was too angry at you for not ... being in my life and making me a part of yours, as a friend. Maybe this isn't mutual, and I'm pretty sure it ain't.

I just feel like I have lost you to other people I don't know.
When you come back, ever, please tell me you're staying.
And if you don't, please think of a way to show me that you never cared.

Thank you
:(

Update

2011-11-26T18:17:00.001+08:00

Rubber Ducky Jr

2011-11-24T14:52:00.000+08:00

so love you

You're It

2011-11-22T15:51:00.001+08:00

hiya guys im so tired. imma be takin my macro ut in a bit. ): why.. do i feel so scared. i need more than good luck wishes. ohh this agony!

ciao

Constant Spin

2011-11-21T02:46:00.001+08:00

takde rambut lagi...
i'm really sorry guys i know i've been like posting big random pictures of myself. do you know why? prcsly, neither do i. who cares, i enjoy going to others' blogs and looking at their self-shots. hahaha no... i don't do this for your enjoyment. nothing much has been happening lately. i'm striving towards a healthy lifestyle, like margaret from phua chu kang. only cos my bf is going for his napfa for ns.. and i'm going with the flow. no fast foods, no unnecessary binging, no huge portions, more veggie, more fruits, and weekly jogs. it's been great. cos we've been cutting down on trips to town. i mean like drastically. it was totally horrible last time. hmmm what else, oh! i'm back at work. recently we had a 7017 bbq, nice to know that our bfs can click so well. i'm broke at the moment. i'm... in need of more endorphins. i..... had fun working just now. screaming and laughing. i.. have a test coming up and ive never felt this pressured before. i recently found out how my sense humor is slowly deteriorating, and the level how silent i am is increasing rapidly. horrible. i bought a bag of merci chocolates and it tastes so good, i throw its wrappers back inside the bag. i drink alot of pomegranate lately, it tastes divine. i'm in need of a new perfume, mj daisy or lanvin eclat d'arpege or even lancome tresor in love would suffice. okay, at least disney princess nye cologne pun jadi ah?! please... the moschino my sister bought was such a *&^%!@. smells average........... bleah. i... msnfabnfnf. i dont know ah bye.

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I honestly hate the rotations at work. It really does suck cos it's not like what i've always been comfortable with. I'm gonna miss my f.a eizah and my noisy apek sm. i don't even know what is left? feels like it's only me and zurah. and zurah if you are reading this, please consider going out with me bf eizah hairie syida apit and you and in keh! we should hang out soon :) loves yall xx

didn't know i would get so emotional about this

2011-11-19T00:30:00.001+08:00

Happi

2011-11-19T00:27:00.001+08:00